1/2 Birthdays

So, tomorrow is October 15, which makes it my official 1/2 birthday. Now, I only mention this b/c I have a co worker who celebrated his children's 6 month or 1/2 birthday, and I do not see why we cannot celebrate this milestone throughout our who lives...I mean, really only 1 day a year that we can celebrate "me!" As a woman, and those of you who are moms, need to have more than 1 day a year to say "me, me, me". Ok, yes, Mother's Day arises into motherhood...but you have to share that with ALL moms! How about celebrating your 1/2 birthday :) B/c really, life is short, how do you know you are going to make it to that next full birthday-oh, you don't! Life should be full of celebrations-a reason to raise a toast and say "great job", or "thank you", or "glad you are in my life". Well I don't see anything wrong with that, dang it!

So-Happy Birthday to my friend who actually has a full birthday tomorrow..and happy 1/2 birthday to me!~ Maybe I just might bring cupcakes to work :)

Happiness and Sadness all in one.

Someone once told me that you cannot have the feeling of happiness and sadness at the same time, but yes, it is quite possible. I am overwhelmingly happy-although my happiness is not exactly something I can run around yelling at the top of my lungs just yet..and then in the same breath, sadness. Heavy,lonesome, sadness. Sadness at closing one door, and opening others. Sadness at the loss of my "perfect" family, Sadness of feeling as though I never existed in this world in western Omaha I so greatly desired to create and love.

I moved here..to see about a boy. And then I wanted so badly to create this world I never had. This life that any "normal" person would want-but I walked away. I now live with a co worker, and got an offer to live with my gay friend :) And I have never been more optimistic about my future in my life.

Suburbia Omaha, sea of turf grass, same vacations every year, same everything, well, I simply freaked out at the thought of that, and now plan trips to Paris, Opera's in Chicago, and dinners with my wonderful gay friends...

It is MY world, and I love it, despite the current sadness, I can't help but to be euphorically happy.