Everyday, I wake up. Usually it is very slow, and I really have no desire to jump out of bed. The last few days I have been thinking about life and death. Both have surrounded me in the last few days, as well some other very deep issues. Sometimes you think what you are going though has to be the WORST thing ever..and then something much worse happens to friends you care about. My friend Lisa is a huge Astrology believer, and I too join the likes. Right now we are in what is called "Mercury Retrograde" and apparently BAD things happen during this time. YES, very bad things have happened in the last few days. I thought at one point, I can't handle all of what is going on my life, it is too much, and I know it is far from over. I am very dark right now, and there alot more darkness ahead. My sad little pity party was rocked Friday evening, and knocked off its course-guess, what..there can be much worse. My balance is definitely off right now, and life is pretty damn rough. The other alternative...I could not even be here to worry about all of this...or even rejoice in the potential of life. Someone brilliant once told me that "no man is an island" He was ever so correct- often we feel as though we are drowning-alone. It is hard to talk about your deepest, darkest thoughts/feelings/dreams. But when we do - we realize that no, we are not here, struggling alone, but rather surrounding by loving friends and family, who would be there in a heartbeat.
Today - I need to set my own struggles aside, and pray for a few others in my life.
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